The seeking of a Challenge

I need to write. This blog was originally for writing deep thoughts, back when I thought I had deep thoughts. The name was different too, which is why the domain name has nothing to do with the blog name anymore. The problem with setting yourself up to write deep thoughts is that, once you decide that, no thought really seems deep enough. So there is the enthusiastic first post, and that's it. Nothing come after that because everything you actually want to write is dismissed as "they won't think that's deep."

That's stupid. Writing is good, especially if you write as if no-one except you is going to read this. On the internet, of course, it's best to be somewhat discreet since it is inevitable that someday some poor mush is going to stumble onto your page while surfing mindlessly, probably on a bender of sorts. So I'm not saying I intend to write everything and anything here. This is not a journal, and I never really was any good at keeping a journal anyway.

I will write everyday though, which is the only thing journal-like about this. I will write every day because writing is a challenge. It is good for you, and it is a great way of expressing yourself, but it is also challenging. It is challenging to think of things to write, and it is challenging to write without thinking and then resist the urge to delete everything you just types out because it sucks so much.

Yes, this will probably suck, mainly because I'm not going to think overmuch while writing.

Am I ruling out all possibility of anything halfway serious being written here? No, not at all. But that is not the intention. Note the distinction between intention and finished product, poor-mush-on-a-bender if you're reading this

Therapeutic? Maybe. A therapist I've been seeing (I refuse to call him "my therapist". I don't have a therapist. I just occasionally stroll into a therapist's office and sit there for an hour) has suggested that I need challenge in life. He think I'm so bored with most of my life that I'm withdrawing from the few parts of it that actually are productive. So this is my challenge, may it be long-lived and effective. I will write every day.

I will write as if there is no reader.

But if you're reading this, welcome :)